Girls sure do know how to make me SAD

Now i'm pretty sure i know what i want.

It's just that she still has somebody and i dunno what's gonna happen yet.

Maybe it's true that time will reveal what we both really have for each other?

That's a good thing but how long will that time take?

I hope it's not that long or if ever, i hope i can take it.

It's nice when people think that your are together just by looking at you.

I had mixed feelings when i heard this girl(i think she's a little drunk) say, "kayo nalang", "mag-boyfriend, girlfriend kayo noh?", and  "bagay kayo".

When i heard that, i wanted to say, "sana lang", but then so that they won't see me as ambitious or something, i just had to deny coz it's not yet time.

I am hoping that my time would eventually come, coz i know what i want now, i want to be more than just friends, i want her.

I don’t get myself.

Why is it that I get attached or fall for the person I like/liked easily?

Good thing or bad thing?

Somehow things are happening the way they should be happening, I think.

My school, my career, and other stuff are in the right place.

BUT what about my love life?

I’ve already lost a lot from my past relationship and it made me kind of feel like

not in the mood to love again.

A lot of tears fell and a long time of sadness haunted me.

I cried almost everynight, whenever i'm alone or even just listening to songs that

remind me about the past.

But then, I learned how to accept what had happened to me and it made me realize

that my world isn’t over yet.

I saw this girl AGAIN, a past crush, but younger, and I got the chance to be close

to her little by little.

Somebody told me that she has a crush on me and upon hearing that, I was like

“whuuut!? Eh crush ko rin siya eh!” it was surprising that someone like her would like

me?

What’s there to like when I feel like a piece of shit?

Now, I dunno, I just can’t stop wanting to talk to her and seeing her.

Is this just temporary?

I THINK NOT, but what I’m afraid of is rejection and having wrong expectations.

I hate being rejected and I hate the feeling of not knowing what to do which is also

happening to me right now.

I wanted to take my time, coz someone’s still there.

However, things seem to be going a bit faster than they should be, BUT I LIKE IT!

I also don’t know if what I’m doing is right coz it seems like I’m breaking some

other relationship when that’s the first thing that I really don’t want to happen and

do.

It made me think twice and made me want to back off.

The thing is, i just really can't stop myself.

She's different, i want to know her more and i've made my mind.

There's no turning back!

Finally.....

ALL I KNOW IS, I’VE ALREADY MOVED ON FROM THE PAST AND MAYBE IT’S

TIME FOR ME TO LOVE AGAIN..:)